A really bad day

I woke late yesterday and really tired.
On the way to school we crashed the car (TAN TAN TAAAAAAN) but we're ok, al7amdellah nothing happened. And bar'9o on the road some jackass was honking the horn non-stop so my brother was telling my oldest brother (cuz he's driving) Waggef wallah aneeko wallah yen'9arib, I was really pissed of cuz dooby 9a7i :(
When I arrived at school I had a serious headache so I fell asleep and when I woke up I found that my friend wanted to fight with HIS COUSIN who is also in our class so ofcourse I had to stand with my friend against his fuckingly stupid cousin.
They ended up not fighting 'n shit.

Here's the best part.

When I exiting the school I found THE WHOLE SCHOOL standing around my car
In my head "NO NO BIG BROBREM (problem)"
The whole school was helping my driver pick the lock cuz he left the keyes inside and it was locked.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH omm altafsheela, oola motawwasi6 were asking me "is this ur car"
Me "FUCK U"
Even the teacher was trying to help me :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''(
And finally after 30 minutes we opened it! w fil6areeg konna 7ane9dom tani :'''''(
When I arrived home they told me "yalla roo7 at'3adda, e7na 5alla9na" Y????? Y would u do this to me??? You had lunch and left ME???

After lunch I slept until 6:30 and I was really really tired so I watched TV till 11:00 then went to sleep.

What a crappy day, miskeen 9a7??

Metallica - One

I can't remember anything

Can't tell if this is true or dream

Deep down inside I feel to scream

This terrible silence stops with me

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Now that the war is through with me

I'm waking up, I cannot see

That there's not much left of me

Nothing is real but pain now

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Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please God, wake me

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Back in the womb it's much too real

In pumps life that I must feel

But can't look forward to reveal

Look to the time when I'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me

Just like a wartime novelty

Tied to machines that make me be

Cut this life off from me

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Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please God, wake me

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Now the world is gone I'm just one

Oh God help me

Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please God, help me

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(Hina 7amas)

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Darkness Imprisoning me

All that I see

Absolute horror

I cannot live

I cannot die

Trapped in myself

Body my holding cell

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Landmine has taken my sight

Taken my speech

Taken my hearing

Taken my arms

Taken my legs

Taken my soul

Left me with life in hell

I got 96% in the first term and that's great, I was thrilled once I got it, my mom was really happy but my dad wasn't :(
I dont know why but every year I get good grades al7amdilla but HE doesn't give a damn, he is never satisfied with my work, it's like everything I do is not enough for him.

When I got this years shahada I was really proud of myself and I was really happy but my dad said "if you got better grades fil-wa6anyya you could've gotten good grades... and Quraan and this and that"
Well, I didn't do good in wa6anyya or this or that!!
And that made me depressed and I started to say "he's right I could have done better, why didn't I get 97,98,99 or even 100%??? then when I thought about it I knew that I did my best and I got a GREAT results"
But I still feel that I let him down and that really pisses me off cuz I didn't let him down.
And he didn't even say that he's proud of me, HE DIDN'T EVEN SMILE WHEN HE SAW IT!!!

Why can't he be more like my mom?!

Gimme one last chance

This is the last time I change my blog...I hope.
Some of you might know me as Cold, before that I was Freak Of Nature and now I'm Dude!

My vacation sucked because alot of my friends traveld and I stayed in Jeddah, but I went to Al-durrah on V.day (no I didn't go because it was valentine's, it was just a coincidence)

7a66et braces, and it really hurts the first 4 days :(

Today was the first day of the second term of school. Not alot of students in mmy class showed up, we were only five.
It really sucked and we were bored as hell, no one was talking we just stared at the board like dawafeer, the fun will start next week... Atleast I hope so.

Well that had to bore you :/
Anyway, the reason for this blog is because I have no one to talk to and I want to let it all out.
BTW, I'm not a good writer so I won't be letting it ALL out cuz I dont know how to, but in time I will inshalla.

That's all for today